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Why I Love YouPeople often ask me
Why do you love her?
What makes her so special?
What defines her from the others?
I love the way she laughs
The way she cuddles with me
The way she acts in the supermarket
I love her happiness
I love how she makes me laugh
About stupid jokes
About the way she acts
I just love you
There is nobody else like you
So mature but at the same time
Also so immature that it's cute
That it make me laugh
You make me happy
Like nobody else does
And I hope we'll stay together forever
Because I cannot imagine a world
Without our adventures in the supermarket
Our MarriageMy love for you never ending
Forever bound,forever together
We don't care what others say
We have eachother right?
But whats this?
An intruder into our lives
Seems to be after me
After breaking our marriage
Why is a gay marriage different?
Why do others seem to find it none existing?
Why do others try to break it?
Doesn't it have the same value as a straight marriage?
Why do they always try to intervene?
Why can't they respect our love?
Why can't people accept gay loving?
Why must it be different?
It's still love after all..
No matter what gender..
It's still love
Why can't you respect that?
Memories Will Never DieYou fight it
You try to block it out
You focus on happy things
But there will always be a moment
A moment that reminds you
Of what happened
Of how you used to be
Of things that are gone now
For some blocking works
For some grieving over them
Happy memories, dark memories
But they will never die
Memories are memories
But can be your demons
Dark memories feeding on fear
Feading on the fear you give them
So far away, shattered
Tears falling, memories forgotten
Never be the same again
We all have memories
Good or bad
But they will always remain memories
Don't let them ruin what you have now
Don't feed them
They will never die
But let them stay in the dark
And try to look into your bright future
Everybody handles memories differently
The best way, nobody knows
We all have our own path
Trying to stay on it
I can't give you the answers
I can only help you
But only if you let me
Memories will never die
They will always be a part of you
But don't feed them
All By MyselfIt's all in my head you say
My demons are not real
My fears are not important
It's all in my head
Yes, you are right
It's all in my head since it's a mental disorder
You scared me away
With your words cutting like knifes
I made the decision to cut you off
To stop your poison words
To stop the pain of your words
Although you were supposed to be my rock
6 years later
Months since we last spoke
I decided to fight my demons by myself
I don't need you to make it worse
I'm lowering my medication
I'm more happy
I'm more free
I did that all by myself
Forever a broken bond
But I'm mentally getting better
All by myself
I'm sane again without your hurtful words
Does it make you proud?
No because I'm with HER
Because I disappointed you
Because all you want is for me to be straight
Atleast she helped me to get sane again
And I don't need my medication anymore
Because I cut you off
All by myself
It's YouI used to be made of stone
Dead and cold inside
Forming this wall around me
Not letting anybody in
I used to be indestructible
You can't break what's not there right?
My heart had gone cold
My mind had gone blank
But then you came into my life
Slowly you brought me back
Slowly you unfroze my heart
Slowly you were able to break my wall
Bringing back the warmth
Breaking my stone wall
Brick by brick
And i'm gratefull
It's you who brought me back
It's you who teached me love
It's you who gave me everything
You gave me a family, a life
I love you so much
You made me soft
You made me dependant on you
And I don't mind at all
Around you i'm weak and soft
Without you I'm cold again
So please never leave me
Because it's you who brought me back
And gave me a great family
Finding her againFind my wife was hard
Finding her in my chaos
Finding her light in my dark world
Finding my other half again
It's tough when you don't love yourself
To love somebody else
To show affection
Although it might look wrong for others
But our love is so true
It might look wrong and disgusting
But it feels so warm
This love is the same as straight love
So I had to find her again
I had to find our marriage again
She makes me complete
She can make me love myself again
I have found her now
It was hard and almost impossible
But we have found eachother
We have reconnected again
And that feeling... I love myself again
Because I will always find her
I will always find my wife
When I will lose sight for a little while
A MiracleAs she came into my life
My dark clouds slowly moved away
To let her in
To let her light up my life
Without her I'm nothing
She is my miracle
She is my savior
She is my purpose in life
As I let her in carefully
She takes care of me
Like nobody ever did
Feels like I came home
A miracle that brought me back
By her soft touch
By her gentle approach
And no matter how mean I was
She never left my side
My miracle in this life
Is a simple girl
Is everything but just a girl to me
She's my miracle, my angel
My days are no longer dark
As I have her now
With her by my side
My days are no longer black
And they will be bright again
Aslong as she stays by my side
As You Walk AwayAs you walk away
I look at your footsteps
Even though it's just for a short while
It brings the clouds back
It just shows how connected we are
Without you I'm alone
Without you I feel disfunctional
Without you I'm lonely
I can't descibe the feelings
That fill me when you walk away
Feelings so dark
Scaring me so much
As I wait by the window
I think back of everything we have
How lucky I am now
I have met my soulmate
I love you so much
Although I'm very bad in telling my feelings
This is a poem for you
Trying to tell you how much I love you
As you walk away
My heart fills with loneliness
Waiting for the moment
That you return to me
Some Of UsThis concrete world
Filled with happy people
AS how society wants to see it
But that's just the upper layer
The top shell of this world
We only see what we want to see
Casting out people who don't fit the picture
As harsh this world is
They can't kill the outcast
They can try
But they can't banish us from this world
We are the people who bleed the most
Who's blood drips down everyday
Tears fall down everyday
But you can't banish us
Some of us in need of help
In need of support
In this concrete, empty world
As I am one of them
I speak these strong words
As my soul fades out
And my blood runs out
Some of us
Will make it in this world
Some of us
Showing the outside world who they are
Everybody needs to be loved
Especially the people in pain
Some of us...
Survivers hidden in them...
Some of us...
Will get out of the darkness
My Thoughts on...Homophobia
I think homophobia is the fear of simply accepting a compliment from someone of the same sex who may dress a little different than you or even give a sweet smile no one has ever given you before.
Homophobia could be jealousy striking as you peer across the lobby to two men or two women loving one another as you wish for yourself to have a lover for your own.
Homophobia is when your ex-girlfriend leaves you poor boy on the sidelines as she reaches for a girl who is there to love her and understand what she wants and needs.
Homophobia is when your ex-boyfriend leaves you self-centered chick trapped in your walk in closet as he leaves you for someone who doesn't mind the fact that he calls himself pretty and beautiful instead of handsome because his new man also agrees with his beauty.
Homophobia is just a phase that's been put on by something we all know as bandwagon or whatever because "everyone is doing it."
They would call being gay was having "unnatural" feelings for the s
Giving Up..When you say i love you
It truly breaks my heart
Knowing i cant have you
Tears my world apart
I'm so stupid for getting my hopes up
I wish i never did
Because presuming is just stupid
Well that's just it.
Its hard,you see
It hurts a lot
No matter what i do
The sadness still looms
Don't people say
People who laugh the most
Are the saddest people ever?
They cry when they are alone
Well that's me..
I laugh so much when I'm with friends
But when they leave
All happiness goes
It disappears to somewhere
Far away and unknown
Its like there was no trace of it
And then my sadness unfolds
It gets deeper and darker
People always say
Don't worry there is always one for you
Well years and years I've searched
I've never found
This certain someone
People keep mentioning
its probably just a lie
Which i've lived all my life
There is no one out there
Soon ill just give up
Because its getting me down
I'm not getting my hopes up
I mean c'mon who would want me
Who would love me
Where We BelongI wan't to write a happy song
I'm looking for my happy place
But everything's gone wrong
Life slapped me in the face
I'm still trying to find myself
It's not in the reflections of their eyes
There's just one who can help
But they'll never realize
I miss that old life
But you're still mine
I'm promised by this knife
That was my given sign
Forever and ever
It's where we belong
To be together
Nothing can go wrong
To look in your eyes
The most beautiful place
And that'll be my prize
Your beautiful face
Forget About HerAnother day without you is just another day alone
I remember the day you left so clearly
As you told me how that mark got on your neck over the phone
Torn apart and left alive, barely.
A year has past and i'm left only a friend to you
Watching as your life continues to move on happily with him
I try so hard to make you notice my love is still true
Yet he is the only one in your eyes, and i am to you forever dim
I grab you one day and pull you close to me
Embracing you softly and griping your back
I want to pull closer and move forward towards your lips
Yet bravery and guts is something i always have lacked
You are the girl i will never forget
The only person i have ever really loved
A fire is burning within that you have lit
But all i can do is sit and look above
I guess love like this never has a happy end
Or maybe it does but i am an unlucky girl
Maybe one day God will descend
And take me away to forget about her
-Forget About Her
AcaciaA fleeting glance
I can't hold your eyes
They are not mine to hold
Sweet and seductive
Do you realize it?
The lips I'll never know
Your fluid movements
Make me jealous
But what need do I have
To move like you?
Read between my words
Hear that phrase?
Friend is a four letter word to me
i remember hershe
pale blue eyes,
long dark lashes,
never had anyone invaded my senses the way she did.
sitting on the floor.
"why are you on the floor and not partying?"
"tonight, i await the storm," breath so enticing
"the storm?" cut off by her lips pressing mine
in a heap,
crumpled on the floor,
raincoat and clothes,
skin to skin
flesh so pale
riding out the storm.
dead at the age of 23
i remember her.
Overcoming the Obstacles.30-42-1.
The lock clicked as I pulled down on it, and I opened my locker with a sullen look upon my face. No one in the halls had stopped to say hi, or tease me to hurry up with getting my lunch. No smiles, no hugs. The only saviour was my sister, who even then hardly recognized me lest demoting her status as a senior.
I was alone, to fend for myself from the wolves of society. And I felt myself slowly being eaten, limb by limb.
Earlier in the week I had tried to group in with my sister, but she and her friends were complete polar opposites from me that I felt alienated by their talk of girly attire. She felt for me when I talked to her about it, but I wasn't going to ask her to change herself just so I wouldn't die at the hands of the other students. She'd be gone next year, so I had better learn now when everyone was still fresh.
I was reaching up to the top of my locker to grab my lunch bag when I felt the pressence of someone beside me, and staying beside me. I flicked my
For Game's SakeGod, football games were dumb. I spent most of the game sitting on a cold bench, bored to death, waiting for someone to score so I could leap up and pretend like I cared. It wasn't that I wanted to be on the field. Not only would I end up on the ground, covered in mud and grass stains, but the thought of being crushed underneath a pile of sweaty gorillas was revolting.
She was my saving grace, in a tight cheer outfit. Yeah, my girl in half of her clothes in thirty degree weather. I ran my eyes over the sea of purple and white, looking for her. The cheerleaders were always up front, but, even if that wasn't the case, I would have recognized her immediately. Her black hair was pulled back with a purple bow, and her hands clutch frilly pom-poms tightly as she kicks and shouts into the chilly air. The top and bottom half of her uniform are cut extremely short, exposing her pierced bellybutton and all natural tan skin. The team roars over the crowd and coach, who is yelling at the players b
sometimes, it gets to medo "normal" people
have to find people
who support them being alive
do "normal" people
have to find people
who accept their love for another
do "normal" people
have to be told
"i have no problem with you being here"
do "normal" people
have to find people
who will "help them be themselves"
if "normal" people
don't have to waid through millions
to find one person
who "needs" to say
they support them, accept them, have "no problem" with them, and will "help them"
why do we?
there is nothing wrong with us
why do we /need/ to be told these things
why do we have to be treated
like we have some sort of disability
why can't i just tell my friends
"hey, I'm transgender"
and have them respond
"oh, okay, so did you see the game last night? crazy, huh?"
i just really really hate
that we have to be told
"we still love you"
"I'll support you no matter what"
"i don't have any problems with people like you"
it just feels like they're taking pity on us
but i don't want their pity
A Life Of Shame?What gives you the right to judge?
What gives you the right to stare?
What gives you the right to hate us?
What gives you that damn right?
She's my wife
She's my love forever
I just want to hold her hand
I just want to kiss her
Without the staring
Call us names
Give it all you got
But this is not my life of shame
This is my life filled with joy
Filled with tyhe love of my life
Filled with everything I ever wanted
So this is NOT my life of shame
I will not be ashamed of m wife
So you can judge all you want
But I won't be ashamed for my feelings
Because I like who I am today
So tell me
Who are you to judge what's right?
To judge us in general
Or are you just afraid of something you don't know
Or perhaps even jealous of something you miss?
This is not my life of shame
Lesbians are also human
And we will not be ashamed of our feelings
So who are you to judge us?
Poetic PsychosisIn thirty seconds, the next shell would fall. Every night was the same, but every night Lorenzo experienced it as if it were the first time. His throat felt swollen; breathing was hard. He glanced around at the others; young men like him who had been shipped out in the name of honour and freedom. There was no honour in this, no freedom. Only death behind your eyelids, and a fear so gutting, that it carved out your innards and left you a hollow husk. Lorenzo tried to breathe, tried to assure himself that he was still whole, still made of flesh. They had lied when they told him he was ready.
Matteo ran towards him, arms out, rifle swinging uselessly at his side. He shouted for him to run, but Lorenzo remained motionless, unable to move as his friend’s warning was lost in the constant blare of gunfire. None of them were ready.
“The cycle is repeating. It is not safe.” The voice was soft and weak, yet it carried over the gunfire and battle cries without impediment.
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